My This 2 days emotion is like
From Angry -> Sad -> Worried -> Sad -> Worried -> Angry -> Worried ... and so on..

Hais.. Angry because i had a quarrel with bf..
Sad because i don't know what to do bout it
Worried because he is being admitted into hospital.

zzzzz there alot of mixed feeling in me..
I feel that im selfish.. selfish to be still angry of him even though he is admitted into hospital..
But.. the quarrels and him being admitted is 2 different things.. So im not in the wrong to be angry ryte? hais..
Just that i cant make myself to stay angry when he is maybe having his operation now at 1 am?
or maybe later on.. hais..

Though its a minor operation but i can really feel the fear he is feeling currently...
Staying in the hospital alone.. (the latest i can stay there till is 10 pm ma)
Den holding on to the pain given by the big n thick needle poking thru his arm as he is put under drips..
Wondering when is he going to go under the knife..
-will it be painful?
-will it leave a big scar?
-will he be safe?
-what will the doct do?
lastly... who will he see when he wakes up?
Hais.. i know im definately wont be the first one to reach there..
Just hope everything will be finee for him. =)

Today when i saw the facial expression of baby when needle was poke into his arms.. i know its painful.. hais..

P.S. anyone reads this.. pls be reminded.. i request to put me into slp if i have any sickness which req a big needle poking thru any parts of my body.